A lot of thinking and thinking and thinking.
Don't you sometimes wish that your friends will treat you the way you treat them?
Don't you think some people deserves a second chance?
Don't you wish for consistency?
Some people emo not because they have a reason to be sad. It's just that they hope others will care for them. However most of the time the people they wish would care would not care which makes them even more emo from the fake emo they were. And it's always the outsiders and irritants that shower them with concern which makes them fed up.
But what's so happy about being happy. When you see others being more happy and fortunate than you you feel sad. What's so fun about being happy. You probably won't appreciate being happy anymore cuz you have everything that you want.
Somehow i wonder what it would be like if i could turn back time and change some things. Would we still be so close? Or would i just totally ignored you and bear the grudge against you for the things you said. There are really things i would like to change. But well, I guess by going through it then did i know who were those who stood by me.
It's so true when people say you only look at people's flaws when you're with them and start to appreciate them and realise how important they are when you lose them. I guess i have tried to learn to be not as spoilt and demanding. It's hard. I'm trying. I've already survived 3 months of freedom and living cheap. I do crave for Sushi Tei and new com and many other stuffs =(
It's back to letting people understand me and trying to understand people. Trying not to let my temper and pettiness spoil anything. Trying not to let my emoness scare you. But i guess it takes time for you to understand me and not be scared but instead be concerned. It may not be your fault but i somehow just want you see and feel the love and protectiveness. LOL. I think I'm crazy. Zz.
Oh and it's so irritating when you get the feeling of when you can't have something so you don't want others to have it. =( Sadly it's so common and irritating. Selfish. But it's human nature. Sucky.
Emo session over.
I have so many things i want to buy and do =(
1. Cut hair
2. Dye hair.
3. Buy shirts
4. Buy boxers
5. Buy ring
6. Buy keyboard
7. Buy headset.
8. Eat sushi.
9. Clear my table.
10.Tidy up my room.
11. Go running.
12. Train some muscles up.
13. Play Dota
19. Spend time with you.
20. Love you more.
21. Go on a holiday. Japan or Hong Kong Preferred.
22. Go clubbing.
Whining session over.
Eat breakfast.
Will you catch a star for me? Please?
Thursday, April 26, 2007
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