`Learning 2 Smile*

I hate to listen to bad things people have to say. But it's in my nature that when people tell me something half way I have to know the full story or I will just feel so itchy to want to know about it. Z. Yet again I got myself to listen to some dumb story that breaks my heart. Things I wished would never be true. It was in my nature to trust the person instead of what other people said but now. I guess it's different. I'm kinda disappointed again. Feeling that I'm wasting my time and effort holding on to something that isn't real. I may be true to that person but i'm just plain lying to myself.

I guess. I shall just let it be. I shall apply the theory he applied. Remember the bad stuffs. Well if she is sincere I wouldn't have been wasting these three years of my life. Pretending to forget all the bad things. Pretending everything is still the same. It isn't. It won't be. It can't be.

It really sucks. To be here tearing. To try to trust someone again. And it all just has to fall apart again. Fck it. Really sucks. Zzz. Maybe I shall just never trust a person who broke my trust. Simple? I guess Galare ice cream isn't enough to keep this little boy smiling for long. Not even the sweets. I need more ice cream =(

Time to start loving. Loving myself.

[It starts with]
One thing, I don’t know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
All I know, time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It’s so unreal, didn’t look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on but didn’t even know
Wasted it all just to watch you go
I kept everything inside and even though I tried it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter

One thing, I don’t know why
Doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind I designed this rhyme
To remind myself how I tried so hard
Despite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I’m surprised it got so far
Things aren’t the way they were before
You wouldn’t even recognize me anymore Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me in the end
You kept everything inside and even though I tried it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when

I put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
And for all this
There’s only one thing you should know