Officially outta Team Blaz[3] today. Time really flies. I have been in this Team for about 2 months now. The memories and Friends that I have met in the Team will always be remembered. But Still Im kinda EMO now. arghh...Donno why, Cant bear to leave the Team. =( We trained together every sat @ egames then eventually moved over to GG. Humm.. Teri-, Sixer, Knight, Jix Robin, dh, kw, Bam and everyone else. Thank you for everything. Really.

Nobody knows
Just why we're here
Could it be fate
Or random circumstance
At the right place
At the right time
Two roads intertwine

And if the universe conspired
To meld our lives
To make us
Fuel and fire
Then know
Where ever you will be
So too shall I be

Close your eyes
Dry your tears
'Coz when nothing seems clear
You'll be safe here

From the sheer weight
Of your doubts and fears
Weary heart
You'll be safe here

Remember how we laughed
Until we cried
At the most stupid things
Like we were so high
But love was all that we were on
We belong

And though the world would
Never understand
This unlikely union
And why it still stands
Someday we will be set free.
Pray and believe

When the light disappears
And when this world's insincere
You'll be safe here
When nobody hears you scream
I'll scream with you
You'll be safe here

Save your eyes
From your tears
When everything's unclear
You'll be safe here

From the sheer weight
Of your doubts and fears
Wounded heart

When the light disappears
And when this world's insincere
You'll be safe here

When nobody hears you scream
I'll scream with you
You'll be safe here

In my arms
Through the long cold night
Sleep tight
You'll be safe here

When no one understands
I'll believe
You'll be safe,
You'll be safe
You'll be safe here
Put your heart in my hands
You'll be safe here

I'm emo......... EMOOOOOOOOO.. Saw a notebook which was collecting dust in my drawer. It somehow is making me EMO SI!!! Argh!! =(
You were just like the water in the sea
So wonderful so nice
I took a handful of you
I tried my best to hold onto you
Every second you were slipping away
I decided to freeze you.
I thought I could hold on to you longer
But my hand couldnt take it
You were to painful to hold on
I put you away to cool
Soon You were back in liquid state
Slipping away each and every second
Now nothing of you is left
You have slipped of my hand
I can no longer feel you
Gone. You were gone
I am dying
So Lost. So Lost without You.

A lot of thinking and thinking and thinking.
Don't you sometimes wish that your friends will treat you the way you treat them?
Don't you think some people deserves a second chance?
Don't you wish for consistency?
Some people emo not because they have a reason to be sad. It's just that they hope others will care for them. However most of the time the people they wish would care would not care which makes them even more emo from the fake emo they were. And it's always the outsiders and irritants that shower them with concern which makes them fed up.
But what's so happy about being happy. When you see others being more happy and fortunate than you you feel sad. What's so fun about being happy. You probably won't appreciate being happy anymore cuz you have everything that you want.
Somehow i wonder what it would be like if i could turn back time and change some things. Would we still be so close? Or would i just totally ignored you and bear the grudge against you for the things you said. There are really things i would like to change. But well, I guess by going through it then did i know who were those who stood by me.
It's so true when people say you only look at people's flaws when you're with them and start to appreciate them and realise how important they are when you lose them. I guess i have tried to learn to be not as spoilt and demanding. It's hard. I'm trying. I've already survived 3 months of freedom and living cheap. I do crave for Sushi Tei and new com and many other stuffs =( It's back to letting people understand me and trying to understand people. Trying not to let my temper and pettiness spoil anything. Trying not to let my emoness scare you. But i guess it takes time for you to understand me and not be scared but instead be concerned. It may not be your fault but i somehow just want you see and feel the love and protectiveness. LOL. I think I'm crazy. Zz.
Oh and it's so irritating when you get the feeling of when you can't have something so you don't want others to have it. =( Sadly it's so common and irritating. Selfish. But it's human nature. Sucky.
Emo session over.
I have so many things i want to buy and do =(
1. Cut hair
2. Dye hair.
3. Buy shirts
4. Buy boxers
5. Buy ring
6. Buy keyboard
7. Buy headset.
8. Eat sushi.
9. Clear my table.
10.Tidy up my room.
11. Go running.
12. Train some muscles up.
13. Play Dota
19. Spend time with you.
20. Love you more.
21. Go on a holiday. Japan or Hong Kong Preferred.
22. Go clubbing.
Whining session over.
Eat breakfast.
Will you catch a star for me? Please?

I seem to be doing alot of thinking. Once again i got myself sad =( Just thinking of nonsense I shouldn't even be thinking of. My thoughts are so disorientated now. I can't even concentrate on playing match =( I'm feeling so sad. Over something that isn't real. I don't believe. I don't want to believe. I hope it will not happen =( Arghh... EMO SI LE LAHZ. What are friends for. No one wanna play game with me. Fck them all.

Cant get to slp. A stupid mosqito was sucking the hell outta of me. If I could catch it I will smack it into pieces. EMO SI LE LA, friends all ps me. Didnt ask me for dota. =( Had got school work to do, haven't completed them yet. Passed birthday present to Shu Ting. My heart was throbbing when I see her. Don't know what to say to her. Simply wished her Happy Birthday and asked if she has got lesson after lunch? What a dimbo. Wanted so much to ask her more, to chat with her longer. Didnt have the courage, I guess. Meeting Kenny for school @ 6.45. Cant get to slp now. Will you be there for me when I am feeling down?

I want Chocolates
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I want Chocolates
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I want Chocolates
I want Chocolates
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Somehow i just feel so emo yet again. Maybe it's just the emo time of the month. Everyone seems to be emo as well. And i have to say it does have an effect when everyone uses some emo nick. Makes me feel weird being happie. LOL! I don't know love. What is love. Why do i fall in love? Love is evil. Love is sad. Love makes people sad. Love makes people emo. It should be banned. Yea, Ban it plz. Makes me feel useless. Makes me feel helpless. Makes me feel jealous. Makes me feel happy. Makes me feel sad. Makes me feel loved. I don't know what i am talking. =(