Being single isn't that bad I guess. It has many plus points to make myself happy. I guess finally someone did the right thing to initiate it. It was dragging on. There wasn't common time or interest. Oh wells. Don't blame anyone. Don't blame yourself. We had our time. We had our laughs. We had our love. It shall be remembered.

I hate to listen to bad things people have to say. But it's in my nature that when people tell me something half way I have to know the full story or I will just feel so itchy to want to know about it. Z. Yet again I got myself to listen to some dumb story that breaks my heart. Things I wished would never be true. It was in my nature to trust the person instead of what other people said but now. I guess it's different. I'm kinda disappointed again. Feeling that I'm wasting my time and effort holding on to something that isn't real. I may be true to that person but i'm just plain lying to myself.

I guess. I shall just let it be. I shall apply the theory he applied. Remember the bad stuffs. Well if she is sincere I wouldn't have been wasting these three years of my life. Pretending to forget all the bad things. Pretending everything is still the same. It isn't. It won't be. It can't be.

It really sucks. To be here tearing. To try to trust someone again. And it all just has to fall apart again. Fck it. Really sucks. Zzz. Maybe I shall just never trust a person who broke my trust. Simple? I guess Galare ice cream isn't enough to keep this little boy smiling for long. Not even the sweets. I need more ice cream =(

Time to start loving. Loving myself.

[It starts with]
One thing, I don’t know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
All I know, time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It’s so unreal, didn’t look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on but didn’t even know
Wasted it all just to watch you go
I kept everything inside and even though I tried it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter

One thing, I don’t know why
Doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind I designed this rhyme
To remind myself how I tried so hard
Despite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I’m surprised it got so far
Things aren’t the way they were before
You wouldn’t even recognize me anymore Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me in the end
You kept everything inside and even though I tried it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when

I put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
And for all this
There’s only one thing you should know

I want to talk on the phone.

I want a bedtime story.

I want a meow.

I want shopping.

I want an Everglide T-100 keyboard.

I want new flip flops.

I want new phone.

I want new shirts.

I want more shopping.

I want Citibank Credit Card.

I want to get drunk silly.

I want the world to be simple.

I want humans to not be evil.

I want Dark chocolates.

I want Strawberry.

I want to be happy.

Every time I think of you
I get a shot right through into a bolt of blue
It's no problem with mind, but it's a problem I find
Living a life that I can't leave behind

There's no sense in telling me
The wisdom of a fool won't set you free
But that's the way that it goes and it's what nobody knows
And every day my confusion grows

Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for that final moment
You say the words that I can't say

I feel fine and I feel good
I feel like I never should
Whenever I get this way, I just don't know what to say
Why can't we be ourselves like we were yesterday

I'm not sure what this could mean
I don't think you're what you seem
I do admit to myself that if I hurt someone else
Then I'll never see just what we're meant to be

Every time I see you falling I'll
Get down on my knees and pray;
I'm waiting for the final moment you'll
Say the words that I can't say.

Why do you never keep to your word?
Why do you always say one thing and do another?
Why do you always say one thing and mean another?
Is it very hard to keep to what you say?

Ah. I think i'm weird.

Humm.. Woke up early. The air's fresh. Kinda feeling weird today. Was wondering If I could survive this weeek of school. School was never fun to me. =( Well, Recently came across a blog while watching Gangster 15 on youtube (Waching the show to get inspiration for DMPF project). The owner of the blog is a girl. She is always smiling, always laughing. Unlike me. I wish to be like her. I wish to have someone to care bout me. I wish for a change. I dont want to be thinking of her anymore. I want to move on with my life. I want to smile. Real smiles, not fake ones.

Now I wish that someone, someone like her, can bring laughter back into my life. Maybe I have not found that someone yet. But I know she is somewhere out there in the world. Waiting for me..

Will my wishes come true? Or am I dreaming?

Maybe I was silly. Really silly to think this will work out again. Time to think. I think we both need more than just time. I guess whatever you said werejust words. I've done quite alot of thinking. But I guess the thinking I did was only on the good stuff. I have forgotten all the bad stuffs that come along with me. I'm trying to recall but I'm afraid. Losing almost everything I have now. Is it worth it? I know I won't be able to find another better one at least, I think. But is it all worth it? Can someone tell me please. Maybe God can stop playing games and give me a sign. =(

I wish whatever you said tallies with whatever you do. I wish you could tell the truth. Everything just seems so blur right now. Maybe it's all lies. Just lies. Give me a break please. It's a torture to hold back the tears.

It irritates me that people quit games. Especially drafts. What's more a friendly match with your friends. Screwed up. Z. If you wan sleep wan eat wan shit wan whatever fck then don't fcking jio match or tell your friend that you don't want to play in the first place instead of wasting 9 people's time like you just did. Irritates me seriously.

You suck. You're fcked up.

Empty spaces fill me up with holes
Distant faces with no place left to go
Without you within me I can’t find no rest
Where I’m going is anybody’s guess

I tried to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete

Voices tell me I should carry on
But I am swimming in an ocean all alone
Baby, my baby
It’s written on your face
You still wonder if we made a big mistake

I don’t mean to drag it on, but I can’t seem to let you go
I don’t wanna make you face this world alone
I wanna let you go (alone)