So I haven't blogged in, comparably ages?
A lot's been happening. Ups and downs. I am having my attachment now. While I don't have a large source of income currently, I am rather relieved. I don't know what I'm going to do now. I still think I need to see a psychologist for my suspected ADD. I read out the symptoms to my brother and mom and they were laughing like crazy because everything just sounds like me. D'oh. Anyway, I dont have a break now from doing anything. And I've been spending almost no time with her - something I had to go without while I was at work. It's not that I'm not used to it.But somehow, I was always miserable this time. Maybe I'm getting too dependent on her. Again. But oh well. I'm not enjoying this period, while it lasts.
The dust settles on -that- one argument, and things go back to relatively normal. But some things, can they go back to the way they once were? I dunno. Forgiveness is one thing. And I don't feel angry anymore. But really, I'll watch myself from now on. Cause I'll never know the things people say about me.
I had a much needed talk with Venessa. On stuff that's been bugging me for awhile. Again, another thing lifted off my chest. It's not just relationship stuff. It's other things as well. I don't know why other people seem to have this need to pass comments on our relationship. You're not me or her - what would you know about what goes on with us? You really can't judge things by how they look from your point of view, so stop doing so. Cause it's really discouraging to try so hard at this relationship and then have other people forming their own opinions about us and what we're doing wrong. When it comes to this relationship, it seems like only my gan mei understands me at times. Sorry but I'm not a robot, okay? I'm not the perfect boyfriend. If anyone thinks he can do with a better one, you're welcome to be her boyfriend or find some awesome boy that she likes, who would love her just as much as I do. Anyone who could do better is welcome to take my spot. Cause last I checked, nobody else was trying as hard as I am to make her happy... Im still in the office at this wee hours! Doing the last preparation for this wcg! /cry
